What we see is not really real
What we feel oftentimes are not facts
What we sense has its own appeal
While our actions end up poleaxed
The one we loved as a child
We’ve forgotten many years ago
Young love that once drove us wild
We now barely even know
16 years old I would’ve sworn that my Mom really hated me
Now a Mom myself I realize how flighty teens can be
21 years old I fell in love
Never thought without him I could live
In retrospect I realize my life to him was not mine to truly give
Seconds, minutes, hours gone by
Then days, weeks, months and years
Over feelings that were not even real
I’ve filled an abundant ocean of tears
Adulting now I’m forced into an
Everlasting desire to grow
Finally recognizing after so many years
True reality I never did know
I looked like just a normal teen
Then an even more normal mother
Longing to be all grown up
Then suddenly birthing five little others
I loved to smoke and smoke and smoke
And smoke so much dirty weed
Only to know beyond a shadow of a doubt
What was obvious I never perceived
Grateful for 20/20 vision now
So all truths are no longer hidden
What really matters in my life
Are all the wonderful words I have written
Joyful to have another opportunity
To live out loud before eternal night falls
Glaring past my reality distorted
Finally making sense of it all
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